Rihhadatul Aisy

R.I.P To My Youth It never cross my mind, even at once, about what actually happened in this world right now that a tiny virus can change the whole aspects of our lives. Like, whole ! I’m only 23 and to be honest, there are still many things I want to see, feel, and have. For such age, I should be exploring everything freely but in fact all I can do is just staying in a place. People are apart . Then again, I couldn’t live like this. This quarantine is totally driving me nuts. We don’t know for sure when exactly this disease will disappear or maybe this disease will never disappear at all. Who knows? Wasting time in home at a young age, getting old, and preparing myself to be a good housewife eventually kind of the only solution I have. I know, I have so much complaints about this situation. Even so, I realized there are still some positivity about it, such as I have more leisure time than ever to do things I like at home, gathering with my family and some people that cons...

Books I’ve Read in 2019 So, I might say this year is not akin to last year when I still don’t care much about books. Well, some of the books that I have were given from my friends and I will mention their names in this post as well.   There are about 10 books that I’ve read this year (probably more) and I’m gonna give you a brief review of why I like each of the books. ( I wish one day I could make my own library at home) I liked to read one sentence in every chapter a few times and if the words are precisely describing the emotion I felt, I will highlight it with my color gel pen and that is my favorite part while reading because it makes my books look colorful. I am accustomed to writing down my name behind the cover and sometimes I marked it at the fore-edge of the book. 1.   Monsoon Tiger and Other Stories – Rain Chudori                                     ...

THE THINGS I WOULD LIKE TO TELL MY EXES It didn’t work out and that’s just fine but if we passed each other by, I hope that you still say hi or maybe just a little smile because we were happy once upon a time. Hello, all the guys who used to be my happiness but turned into a stranger out there! How is everything? I hope you all are doing well. It’s been so long that we didn’t see each other. No worries, it’s not a big deal here. I’m still doing fine, great actually. It’s just suddenly I have an idea to write something about my past and you all inspired me. What past is past, they said. Your past is the best teacher you have. Well, I said I agree with that. It taught us something positive or negative about our history and some of the life lessons like let someone go for example, also we can learn how to be thankful for the future we have still. So if they belong to us, they will be back. If they don't, we should know there is must be someone who will love us even bette...

THE SADDEST MEMORY IN MY LIFE The most painful thing that ever happened in my life is when my uncle died. It was worse than just broken-hearted or lost my pets.   Well, I know everyone will die eventually. But, I never know how it feels until it comes to me. I CAN’T EVEN TYPE THIS NOW. It’s still hard for me to remember all of the things that I want to write. So, I took a deep breath and just walked around to calm myself down. Sunday morning, I just wake up like usual, feeling calm but enthusiast as well because of that day after I work, I will be seeing my young cousin who was born six months ago and he’s way   too cute so I can’t help missing him. My mom also wants to see him so she planned to go there in the afternoon. Then, my papa took me to my office and I listened to my favorite songs until we arrived, as usual. On the way to my workplace, I felt neutral. Not happy, not even sad at all. Until I got there, I didn’t feel anything bad too. So, it was ab...

FIVE WAYS TO WIN MY HEART “Life is short. Time is fast. No replay. No rewind. So enjoy every moment as it comes. Don’t ever regret anything” Well, I could say, this is a BIG SECRET I’ve ever written in my own blog. I posted it because it is one of the lists in my writing blog challenge and I think it will be fun if I give it a try.   So, if you guys want to know more about one of a girl like me, you can continue reading it. To my mind, the heart is something that crucial and forceful in the human body because of it can sense beautiful things and sometimes it’s so magical because even though it has been hurting so bad, it still can heal itself. And that’s why I wonder how God can create such an amazing organ. Okay, my major point here is I want to tell you about some things that can steal my heart completely.   Well, I just think and realize that there are five ways you need to know to go to my heart. Here they are : 1.       Som...

This post will contain some adult life that you underage people don’t want to understand . So, this is like the pouring of a cold fish’s heart that wants to get a feel of something in her short life. If you find this interesting, then enjoy reading it. Currently, I’ve been thinking that I was trapped in my own comfort zone for too long. Yes, I guess a year is too long.   I wonder if there is something that might or be willing to offer me some help to experience any feelings again. You know, what? It is funny because honestly I missed feeling extremely gloomy and feel the tears down my cheek. It always makes me feel terrific after that somehow. There is something compelling in it that makes me feel stronger than ever. Well, I do exaggerate a bit about that.   But, the thing is I missed feel something and not numb . They say, “The dead cannot feel”. And so do I, but I still alive. I missed the things that I had in the past, but I do not regret it...